Okay, so I've been sorta MIA for the past month or so.

Sorry bout that. I of course was dealing with the lose of my dear doggy, but on top of that dealing with not graduating on time, failing a class, nearly failing a second class, losing my job for some BS about you have to have so many classes in order to work at the school, moving my boyfriend into my parents house with me, being more independent, having my wisdom teeth removed and most recently dealing with the realization that my field is ignoring new comers and there for screwing over my boyfriend and myself. So glad I spend over $75,000 on a degree that might get me a sucky retail gig if I'm lucky. Who knows, maybe I can get to work two jobs with no benefits and move into a shitty apartment. Sorta unfair, huh?

Plus, I love my mother, but she's totally uncomfortable with my living at home with Sean. He and I are desperately trying to look for work and it's only been 7 weeks since he moved in, but she's still completely fed up with us. I feel like I'm losing my relationship with her, which is SO precious to me.

It could be worse though.

Speaking of precious, I just read the book Push by Sapphire, which is based off the new movie Precious out is selected theaters. Okay, it was an AMAZING book! I HATE reading, but this book was so raw and real- none of that flowery description BS- that I couldn't help but fall into it. Is it odd that my two favorite books involve child abuse? o.O


Anyway, I hope you all are well! If you want to, please post how you are doing, even if you don't read my journal. ^_^

So yesterday I learned my dog Patches was really sick. He had cushions disease, hypertension, excessive steroid production, and an enlarged heart, liver and a failing kidney, which also had a tumor on it.

Today we put him down. At 7:00pm tonight he died. He was such a fighter. Even with the sedative he kept trying to get up and leave. I held him in my lap as he weakened and then watched the life slip from his eyes.

Patches was only a month away from his 10 year birthday... He was so young. Apparently he wasn't in pain, but he was incredibly uncomfortable and if he continued to live on he would be miserable and in good time be in a lot of pain... Today he started growing weird bumps on his back.

My family and I are devastated. We're trying to remember happier times though. It's all so sudden.

Anyway, when I got home and stood on the porch for a while I saw a cloud that looked like him... I think he was trying to show me we was okay and happy now.

I'm still crying on and off. So hard walking around in a home with no dog.


Well Patches, this is for you. I love you so much. Rest in peace, my good boy.

The questions.

1. What element are you and explain why. (example: earth, fire, spirit)

2. What do you find sexiest about a person, name a physical and personality trait?

3. Name three songs that either moves you or you consider being your theme song.

4. If you could have any super power, mythical power or be any creature from truth or fable, what would it be and why?

5. What do you fear?

Anyone can answer this as you wish, no tagging. I'd like to hear from a lot of you since I have the coolest watchers.


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1. What element are you and explain why. (example: earth, fire, spirit)
Water. I can be kind and cradle you like a baby, or a viscous man eater who will destroy you.

2. What do you find sexiest about a person, name a physical and personality trait?
I love a hard working, honest man. Doesn't hurt if he's tall and kinda chubby either. ^_~

3. Name three songs that either moves you or you consider being your theme song.
*Best I Am- Flaw
Did You Hear The Mountain Tremble- Daniel Smith
The Cowboy in Me- Tim McGraw

4. If you could have any super power, mythical power or be any creature from truth or fable, what would it be and why?
If I was a mythical creature I'd want to be a goddess so that I may serve justice as I see fit. But I also kinda what to have a forceful energy. And if all those are taken, I might be a werewolf.

5. What do you fear?
Falling, failing... spiders. >.>

Who's you're favorite god or goddess? I'm speaking of the Greek gods, but you may pick another type(Egyptian, Nordic, Asian ect.) if you'd like.

I was into Athena (goddess of war and wisdom depending who you ask) until I found Artemis (goddess of the hunt and moon worshiped by amazons) and now I'm falling for Themis (goddess of justice and balancer between human and gods). She's that stature that you see outside every court house holding the balance and sword and blindfolded.

Who's your favorite?

I was tagged by
Rules:
1. Explain the rules.
2. Each tagged person must tell 8 things about themselves.
3. At the end you have to tag 8 people and post their icons in your journal.
4. Then go back to their page and leave a comment saying you tagged them.
5. No tag backs.

1: I'm supposed to get my bachelors degree in media arts and animation in September.
2: I'm very sensitive.
3: I've got some new Amberisms on the way. = D
4: I want to be a storyboarder
5: I really like the True Blood series and hate Twilight obsessives.
6: I'm thinking about becoming a writer and getting my stuff produced.
7: Black men and hobos hit on me alot.
8: I have alot of issues and should probably be in therapy cause it's starting to get in the way of my life. -.-

I'm supposed to tag people, but anyone who wants to do this can.